13 August 2010

Unwanted Freedom

Well that's it.
I've been let go.


The one freedom i didn't want.
IT HURTS SO FUCKING MUCH,
but for now,
i know
it is the best decision for both of us.


I told myself this one was so great,
that i would not sabotage it.
That i would fight for it.
That
I
WOULD
NOT
be
the one
to end it,
because anyone who let him go
is truly a fool.


Well guess what--
i won that battle:
He ended it,
not me.


So this is it.


I told him he'd always have a place in my heart
and that if i were lucky,
he'd come back to claim it some day.


For now
i will try to not drown in the wetness currently accumulating at my feet
with the hopes that maybe,
if i'm lucky,
"some day" might come.


x

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