In my head (let me be)

(Don't you ruin this for me.)
i want this
i need this
can't be happy without this
so why do you sabotage
don't try to sabotage
this
why won't you let me
have this
leave me be
leave us be
just let me be

i don't need your grief
i don't need your worries
i don't need you to tell me not to hurry
i don't want you to find faults
with me
with them
with things
i hate all that this brings
you think you're protecting
but you're only wrecking
you're inside of my head
just wish you were dead

but maybe it's true...
      oh, but maybe it's not...

what to think of these thoughts
why do you confuse me
only here to abuse me
just let me be
and maybe you'll see
all that i can be
all that we can be
all i'm meant to be

and you make me
say the wrong things
act the wrong way
and it goes on
day after day
can't go on
anymore this way

you deceive me
won't you relieve me
not of them, of you
won't you finally say that we're through
so that i say
you were only something that i once knew

want to say bye
then i'll be high
so why not try
not to deny
and just let me be

you make me so sad
then, thinking of what you did
i get so mad
the strength i only wish i had
the strength to push you away
make you go away
from me
why don't you do
as i say
what i tell you to

and then i'll be happy
oh so happy
to finally be rid of you
and then you'll see
what i always knew: it's ok to be me
then i'll feel so free
just want to be me
just want to be happy...

BUT YOU'RE STILL IN MY HEAD!!!


Ryan J. Nelson ©2004


-this is about that little voice in my head that would always try to sabaotge burgeoning romances by second-guessing and finding faults or faux faults.
~ry