I have been privileged to have been born into a wealthy and free society. I feel that this society is drawing to an end. We have been in decline for decades now, and are bringing down others with us. Still, it is a privilege to live here. So what have I done to deserve this? To deserve this after the fact? To continue deserving this? Will I die without paying my dues? Should I care? Is it proper to pay in some way? Why stay here, in a rut—a cog in a machine that feeds on everyone and everything else in the world? Yes, America is coming to get you! (But not if China gets to you first.) Just what am I contributing to the world at large? Why stay here and consume what is being fed to me? Have I been brain-washed? Why continue to absorb the lies of the government and media? Why continue consuming commercial and natural resources? Is it for my comfort or for the corporate machines? As the human races lives and dies by "survival of the fittest, " so does corporate America; corporate Earth. Sad, so sad.
Will I live to see tomorrow? Or will I, by virtue of living in a city whose chief exports are lies, sin and vice, be mercifully spared the horror that is history-to-be by being annihilated by a nuclear bomb today? I feel it is only a matter of time. If you value what you were told America used to stand for; if you refuse to fight NOW—if you do nothing else, move out of the city; move out of the path of impending nuclear fallout, and maybe, just maybe you will have a chance to rebuild whatever is left of America.
They hate us--they really do. And who is to blame them? Hate. A dirty human trait. But even worse is vengeance. Hate is but a feeling; vengeance is action. You all claim to believe in a god, but you won't let God sort it out. You are NOT God, why would you kill? Why would you have the death penalty and still claim to be Christian? Why claim that Allah is almighty, but still take the fate of another society into your own hands? Why do not Israel and Palestine see that this tit-for-tat bullshit has been going on for too long and will never stop if a border cannot be agreed upon. Is this 2008 CE OR 2008 BCE? Have not you BOTH the right to exist. Why do you want/need it all?! Greed. Israel, stop fucking settling areas that you fucking know damn well are controversial!!! Israel, you done well as of late, but you shoot yourself in the foot. You take a great step forward in terms of peace, then two horrible steps back! Abbas, use your fucking money to fund charities and fucking schools like Hammas to get Gazans on your side. Your rhetoric obviously isn't cutting it. Take a fucking page from the playbook of those who are winning! I will probably be watched very closely from now for writing this. Hi there big brother! Do you see what you've created? Yes, YOU. I am but a cancer and I have every faith that you will attempt to remove me.
A potential enemy combatant, they'll say. And still I'd remain privileged to live here. But again, shall I remain but a cog ? Why not move from this God-forsaken part of the planet and help someone else? Make a difference? Shall I become the next Tom Paine of Nepal? The next Marquis de Lafayette of Myanmar? I already knew the answer to the question before I typed it. NO. No, because I am a coward. I have no guts. I have little will. Is it taken from me? Is it my fault? Or am I now just the product of this machine? That I even realize it, doesn't that give me the impetus to take action? Or have I been sufficiently demoralized?
O, Utopia where art Thou?
There can be none, for God has given us free will, and humans will eventually choose evil; choose selfishness; choose greed; choose to put the needs of themselves ahead of the greater good. It is then impossible to have a Utopia, for humans without choice are but parts of a machine, mere bit players in an act that's only existence is to continue perpetually until some unforeseen force determines its end. To appreciate the good, you must first have known evil. The ultimate paradox? Perhaps.
It is my sincere hope that the Mayans, Edgar Cayce, Nostradamus and the like are correct in assigning the end of the world in my/our lifetime. Will aliens return to Earth to end society as we know it? Will the poles shift, wreaking havoc on human technology? Will Jesus come back to judge us? I personally care not how it happens, but I hope that humans are soon wiped clean from the face of the Earth, as we are not fit to inhabit it.
December 2012 approaches.
May the roaches have better luck than us!
